NDP

Today's National Day as well as Guan Yin's dan...
So I guess Ill miss NDP on TV as I cant watch it live...
And Ill be going to the temple to offer prayers...
Probably catch a re-cast day after... :p

Have a good celebration Singapore! Been a long way!
:)

Getting older...

Hmm, getting the jitters as I think of being another year older... Perhaps I am a born worrier... Perhaps I am just too emo... Perhaps my worries are in vain... Perhaps I am suffering from pre-mid life crisis...

Arrggghhhhhh... I often wonder, what's next? Im approaching 35 soon in a few years and no where better, better than 10 years ago. In fact, 10 years ago my life was at the prime, the peak. Lots of new experiences, people, places, opportunities. 10 years later, I have seen, experienced, gained, lost, alot more than 10 years ago... Of course, this is a natural part of life. New experiences everyday, we just need to see, hear, breathe it...

Kinda emo today... :'(

Still cant post pics...

Hmmm, wonder whats wrong... I still cant post pics......................... @_@

Whats wrong with posting pics... Sigh...

Hmm, ive tried for the umpteen time to upload pics to this blog... just cant do it!!!! arrrgghhhhh!!!!!!! its been 2.5 days!! whats wrong... bother bother bother... no more pics folks till this gets sorted out... cheerios... its really past past past bedtime...

Intoxicated with worthless jargons...

This is funny... Mental humour... Just last week I had a final showdown with an associate... I dun really know if associate is a right term... I've learnt through business and various ties, associate is a hard term to define... Friendship is an even harder term to define...

I had the final letgo today. I am glad I did it. Something which was kept for awhile finally got let out. I am not sure I like it but it is defnitely better than being threatened!!!

Some friends of friends I know claimed to be of help to them. Yet they offered assistance with a tag... They asked for help and they didnt do much to prove they can pay it off.......................... So those who cant pay off are baddies... So what does that make those who give on impulse and ask for returns? Immature? I am unsure...

Some searching for short term reliefs? Some looking at long term investments? Some trying for quick get-rich schemes? Some lost in the confusion of this right that wrong... *Sigh* A bloody mangled mess out there in this urban jungle... Not my piece of cake...

I have recently worked at a place and got to know of many stuffs ongoing. I am not sure I really like it so much and I personally am not a talky person. I hate it to the first degree to be honest. Its a complete waste of time unless something substantial be achieved out of this whole extravaganza... Then what? Who claims what? Who shows off what? Then who is or are the little lambs to be sacrificed? This whole lot of bullshit is getting on my nerves to save peoples' face. Its pure utter crap.

Alot of this bullshit is put out to save faces. But there is often a price to pay. People who give does not give for free. There is an old saying, there is no free lunch in this world. I learnt this when I was in Pri 1. My dad drilled it into us since Pri 1. No matter how desparate we are, never let people take advantage of us. When that happens, never confront it, just walk away. There will be a chance someday. My dad said these fine words, "Singapore is only that big. Through and through it will come to light some day. Dont be sad if you are wronged. Be sad if you do not try your best to assist. Dont be too uptight if we are wronged, we just do what is clear to our conscience and help who is in need. Someday tomorrow it will bring light. We need not be in the limelight, coz if we are in the limelight, we are not help. We are stealing light." Daddy said one more thing, "Those fine help dont come with those who talk. But with those who do the details on the side."

I guess I respect my dad for many things. He is a lousy home-maker to be honest. He gambles and often talks big. But tis is one sure thing he got into my head. Thank you and thank you, daddy. :)

When one contemplates giving the truths, we end up being the baddie. If we say too much, we too become the baddie. Either ways, we too become baddies... Just let it be. Let heavens decide what is best. My guess.

It is a right for people to talk... Sometimes, I wonder, what is the true meaning of life... Being in desparate need and just listening to meaningless talk talk talk... Will it eventuate to anything? Unsure... We listen and listen... I have learnt not to comment from my dad... Then again, those in need must be worthy of assistance before anything can be rendered... This comes full circle to "there is no free lunch in this world"...

This complete bull brings me to one conclusion, "folks in need, bet on toto!!!! strike it rich and depend on yourself!!!!!!"

My conclusion in response to me dad on me playing games and such as the world has so many cheaters is... "Daddy, I love to play online strategy games as I dont have to meet people who will hurt me. Well, they dont meet me in person to hurt me emotionally and physically... People who play online games comes from everywhere in this world. They can be good, bad, evil, kind. We dont know. Yeah, there are plenty of cheaters in this world. I know... What can one do to stop them? We cant. We just have to be careful... We cant fight, so we dont go out fighting... We are civilised lot of educated people... But we can silently protect those we care about and render timely assistance if we are abled to."

This world is a big hefty game play out there. Its all about talking. Sometimes, to me, things goes beyond talking. There are alot alot alot of things out there that require consideration, planning, research and a calm steady mind.

I cant talk and am bad at talking. I will not change what my dad taught me coz it is value. I am 32. I guess I have a life full of adventures to back what my dad said... If I am wronged, so be it. If I am applauded, so be it. I dont give a shit to be honest. I wont fight unless physical or verbal abuse is given without respect...

I went for outward bound instructor training in 1991. We were there for a week, at the same time, went through this drill where we had to convey a message through a group of 6 and pass it on through 10 groups of people... I learnt then, that whatever first said will never end up the same at the end of the day. So why fight? Why fret? Why blue? Deal with it and get over it.

To surmise, I am sad that my 'associate' is much lesser than I thought... And glad to find out how selfish mankind can be to save one's face and one's pocket... Am also glad to know that my half-dead feet didnt venture into deader grounds and cause myself more financial shit than I already am. Perhaps end of the day, this is a blessing in disguise to save all from destruction...

Past 1.5 yrs had been a most gruelling time for me and I have too the rightful right not to share what hurts me most. Today, I did with my friend. And I am glad I did... I dont have to share with everyone whom I meet. But I did today with a friend whom I think is a friend. Money is not something I can waste today. Coz I am getting old... I am a single fighter... I dont have any backups. I dont have people whom I can turn to and talk to and depend on. I depend on myself...... Sad but true. I survived the past 10 years on my own without my parents beside me... People can rob us of our wealth, pride, dignity, whatever, they cant rob us of what knowledge we gain and keep in our brains. Knowledge is the greatest add-on to us which will create wealth.

I dont have to win, in fact, I dont want to win... But I dont want to lose further into situations I know cant make me better... My boss once told me, "When we are poor, we cant even afford to be sick... When we are poor, we have to be extra careful how we mange our lives and how we manage our expenses... We have to be careful how we drive, how we park the car, how to avoid getting stupid expenses, coz we just dont have the money to pay..." And I find supreme truth in his words. Thank you too Butch Lee... Wondering how you are these days...

I am tired... I cried and cried couple of times and drank and drank... Am tired... This exposure of truths kinda drained my energy... It took me much effort to divulge personal info... I am glad coz it freed me from being in the hands of worthless 'aids'... Instead of hearing it from others, lets hear it from the one itself... Right?

Well, after saying it and crying, I am both sad and happy. Saying the sad stuffs makes me moody and cry-baby... Not saying it too makes me lambs to sacrifiers... So either way, I am the fuck-up lamb nonetheless... So, wth... Just eat, drink and be merry. We get killed always so what the hack...

Nite all... Its a rather longy nite. Apologies... For my age, I am getting old... Better pen it down then forget it totally...

Whats happened to this blog...

Cant find the textbox to input text... Is this the right one? Test test test...

Rustic Feel, Leftover from British times...

I love R&R places with a theme. I see potential in places like tat in our local places of eats and R&Rs... I've been hunting for so many years... As far as I learnt to drive and got me own car, I've been hunting down places like tat... NSEW, most parts of Singapore, I must say... Hehehe... One of my hobbies, eat, drink!!!!!!! Most ppl who know me will think that I am bullshitting... Ha! I am not. Sometimes, love to eat does not always = fat. Then again, I drink more than I eat... Sigh... :p

Over the years, some make it, some dont. Open and close. Combi of factors, food didnt taste right, too pricey, place just isnt right, seating areas too cramp, etc, etc... Not really sure what the main causes are. People change, taste change, new places pop up, etc, etc...

Here's a nice place up for dev at some stage I supposed... Its gonna be hip some day. :)

A national monument. A piece of our history.

CHICKEN FISH ANYONE ????

Went fishing 12-Jul... Here's one of the funny catches...
Was told that this fish tastes like chicken????? I didnt get a chance to taste it though.

Hmm, would like to take more pics out at sea but always too busy doing something or afraid of donating my phone to our local seawaters... Heehh... :p

Hairy Clam @ Sushi Tei

Went for dinner at Sushi Tei one evening with friends. It was a treat actually! Cant remember the date now. Apparently, the hairy clam was freshly flown tat day. Hehehe, didnt manage to pic it when they serve...
We were too greedy to remember taking pics......... :p

Here's the leftover, hairy shell for your eyes. Eye-opener...

Ginger Chicken with Salted Fish...

Here's one of my best made dish...
Chicken parts with ginger slices and salted fish... Yum yum!!

*Note : this is uncooked hor... :p

Deep Sea Fishing - Sat 17/5/2009

Wow wee! That's all I can say... It has been a rather fruitful day. For me at least, I learnt a couple of fishing tips... Hmm, I am a newbie... All info counts and all info exciting. :) I personally caught, well the fishes were caught on my line, ie... Hehehe... A shark, a coral trout... Lots of bites, plenty of small fishes...

Thanks to my instructor on board today, Mr Ng, it has been an extremely pleasant journey throughout. He was patiently tying hooks and putting baits for me throughout the entire journey! I must admit for a person who likes fishing, I sure am a total loser... Anyhow, at the end of the trip, Mr Ng gave me some of the fishes he caught, on top of that, he cleaned the fishes properly for me... Words cant describe how paiseh how I felt... Who can be so kind to tie hooks and put baits for you from 9am till 6pm??? No one... Mr Ng did... Thank you, Mr Ng!!!!! Hope to catch you a big fish someday when I am skilful enough!

I forgot to take pictures of my catch today, coz I was absolutely pooped by the time we hit back to shore. It was a hefty 6.15am wake up till now, 1.30am... I had to work tonight and I was contemplating if I can even make it. Time wasnt even decent enough to collect salary, I was kinda worried really what my boss would say... It was kinda stressful but... We cant have the best of both worlds all in one day, can we? Well, I did call in early to report that I will be late... Thank god, by the time, we got back, my boss was kind enough to let me take off for the night. :)

Here is a pic of my lady friend with a BIG fish that made us all frenzy around the front of the boat... Peter Koh caught it, he drove us out fishing today. Think it's a jio meng...

Prawning @ Lakeside Fishing

Was at Lakeside fishing pond on Sunday...
I think it wasnt tat enjoyable...
3hrs 2 prawns... Sigh... Another group of 3, 4prawns...

Fishing!!!

I went fishing today... I guess it was a series of wrongs, right from the start of day...

Me girlfriend rang me this morning at 9ish to cancel deep sea fishing today... I said okay... I couldn't get back to sleep... Got up, blah blah here and there... Right about 12ish, I went to take a nap, dont know why, I just needed that power nap... Hmm, perhaps I am getting old... Ha! 1ish I got up for the loo and saw like 6 missed calls... I returned the sms and went to wash up, brush teeth and wash face for the 2nd time... Phone rang... I didnt answer... Returned call after, it was almost 2pm... GF say lets go fishing... BUT, I need to get there by 2.30pm... Err, I was at Bt Panjang, I cant drive me old car to West Coast within 10mins, also, I cant get myself showered and packed in time... Nonetheless, I felt like my GF wanted me to go, I said ok, if I dont call by 245pm I am not going... She hung up and I went on to get ready...

I reached West Coast at 3.05pm... Nobody there... Her hubby went to pick up their nephew... So I rang my GF, coffeeshop belongs to them, you see, we waited for him to come back and I had a coffee black, my usual fav... When he got back, he was telling me its too late to fish... Tide and all, of course, I dont really understand much of it... So I was thinking should I go home? Then they sat down and chatted for a short wee while... Next, we are going again! It was almost 3.30pm... We head out to buy prawn baits and reached RSYC about 4pm... No time to lose, we headed out to sea soon...

Winds heavy, waves heavy... I guess my little body got bit sick from the extreme wind and tide conditions... I felt really sick... I put aside my hand line and went for a couple of puffs... I was like on the verge of vommit... I could feel the back of my head in pins and needles and I could feel my fingers mildly trembling from the discomfort... Still I held on, I didnt wanna be a party pooper... Went to sit at boat front for fresh air and away from minute details... Somehow, those minute details make me giddy and sick... Can you believe, even stuffs like, looking at my friend talking make me wanna puke?? Looking at the fishes mouths open and close make me wanna puke... The buoyancy in me was completely off... I was desperately looking for calming solution... My GF gave me a candy to chew on, it was bit sour, soon I start to feel better... So the old wives tale of taking suan mei when pregnant, cant be too far off... Kekeke!! So I was back on, wanting to fish again... By this time, it was already too late, fishes are probably off somewhere else playing... Hmm, poor me, no catch at all today... :'(

Take a look at me after sour candy...

Okay, so that was it fishing... We all packed up soon after as baits were all used up... Headed back to RSYC and preparing for dinner... Everyone was hungry...

Here is a look at some of the fishes we caught today... If not for the tide, I think our efforts would be doubled! :)

Tip for the light hearted! Dont go out to sea if you get motion sickness from violent movements~! Better stay indoors and be good! :p

Anyhow, to summarise, still it was a good day afterall. :)

Kudos Susan Boyle !

I was randomly searching the web for interesting news and I came across Britain's got Talent... I must admit I lost track of these idol series since the first 3 months it started years ago... I was hooked on American Idol when it first started, then I stopped watching tele altogether coz I was rooted to the TV so much, I wasn't doing much work or socialising...

Anyhow, here's something to boot about Susan Boyle! Looks can be deceiving... We all somewhat will turn cynical when we see a certain sort of character or looks, etc... We start to make imaginative predictions of the outcome... I must say, I was very much taken aback by what I heard... :)

Way to go, Susan Boyle! Go kick ass! Brilliant voice, incredible performance! :) Very true person at this point in time. :) I like that. :)

Watch her on http://sg.video.yahoo.com/watch/4863134/12964979

Checked at Checkpoint...

Had a rather bollocks day driving around and getting stuck in jams the other day, in JB, i.e... Apart from a severe lack of sleep due to tooth pains and from hanging around too many night birds, I was feeling kinda floaty last 1, 2 weeks... Lots of stuffs ongoing in the mind, changes to be made to my life, etc... I was talking to one of my friends, Nat, the other evening, we were talking about mid life crisis... Or rather, I was talking about mid life crisis... Bummer, bummer, bummer...

Anyhow, back to the story, I wanted to go in to JB to request for a copy of the Malaysian's yellow pages... Managed to get a copy but not sure if it was really useful... We, 7 of us, then head to some hawker centre for a major bite' kids, adults, everyone was starving. My colleague ordered BBQ stuffs, curry fish head, etc... I must say, I didn't quite enjoy the BBQ stuffs... Though the BBQ sotong was goody... Afterwhich we went to Jusco... A large shopping complex about the size of the new Jurong point...

Anyway, I had quite an experience when we were on the way back from Jusco... I had 2 friends in the car, 1 was my colleague, the other sort of young friend :), my boss's teenage daughter... We passed all the checks and were ready to rove back to Singapore... Just right about hitting the exit, we were stopped again by an Indian police officer... He then requested for all our passports. He first requested for my colleague to produce his passport, they spoke briefly in malay, then he was telling us to hand out our passports...

Next, I was told to drive into this little hole, with barriers up the top... Hmm, it was a narrow little hole... I had to squeeze my corolla into the lot... Told to off the engine, take car keys out, wallet and stuffs all out and everyone out. Colleague was taken to a private room next to the hole. Boss's daughter and I got out the car, told to pull everything out of our pockets. Then we were body searched... Hmmm... We were told its routine checking... Afterwhich, wallets, pockets, everything checked, I was told to open up the bonnet and wait for the rest of the car to be checked... Screened, pass. We then hang around there chatting with the lady officer, about job type, etc, while still waiting for my colleague. Apparently he was stripped to the nude... Of course, none of us knew what happened to him till we were back in the car, waiting for exit... My colleague came out, we were told then it wasn't necessary to check the rest of the car, we can leave! :) Just about heading out the final traffic light, we saw those teeth sticking out from the ground. It was red light. We were told not to move, wait, wait, wait... Soon, those teeth folded back into the ground, lights turned green, we were told to go... Weee! Fly away!!!

I must say I got no idea why we got checked... Perhaps it was my corolla... Our faces... Or the weird combination of 1 malaysian cook, 1 singaporean woman and 1 singaporean teenager... None of us had any link to each other and we went on a trip to JB... Kekeke... :p

Ning Ning...

My landlord's cute little daughter... She speaks all the time, questions, questions, questions... I think she's approaching 4 or was it coming to 5... Hmmm... I forgot... :p

Wasted food coz it tasted poor...

Went to one of the coffeeshops at Bukit Panjang for dinner with friend and kid...

Dunno why everything tasted horrible... Especially the chai tou kway... It was burnt

on the underside and just about everything they cook had that burnt smell...

Every dish we ordered from that stall was cooked over tooooooooO~ high heat...

Burnt, burnt, burnt...

It's terrible... Take a look... Those with text... That is... Dun go there for those stuffs

mentioned... Not worth it...

Marina Barrage - Some Pix...

Well, here are some pix for those whom have not visited Marina Barrage... Its a pretty cool place... Good wind, nice lighting, nice view, pretty good for relaxation, unwind, whatever, just chill... :)

Long Day...

Wow, today's been a really long day for me... Kinda pooped now tat Im all cleaned up and sitting in front of comp... Had 2 pretty big meals today, which is unusual for me... Lunch didnt seem so good, perhaps coz I was rushing around... Dinner seemed better, coz I did have time to rest here and there... Was exercising my mouth most of the time... Seemed pretty thirsty most parts of the day...


An uncle brought me to see some cars today... Some pretty fancy cars actually... Perhaps in my dream only to own them... But, its good to have a feel of what rich people see and experience... Smell of new leather, well polished exterior, neat, duotone body wrapping seats, piano black walnut interior... Its A class. Everything is neat. I love it. Did I ever tell you I am a cleanliness freak? :p I love neat and sleek stuffs. Anyway, back to my day's happening, in short, life should be like that if we can afford it. :) Well, one word of caution though, as the saying goes, we can enjoy it, but we shouldnt get too obsessive with our wants... These luxuries seem good to have so long as our income - expenses still leave us room to accomodate it... If not, we better not even plan to have it. It will become our worsest nightmare...

Anyway, lets show you all, 1 dream car that I fancy currently...

Oh, to sidetrack... The other day, while I was driving I saw the name of a company on the back of a truck... Its kinda amusing to see such names... No offence, it may not mean what it meant in
English if in Mandarin... Lets cheggit out...




Anyway, perhaps Im childish... But I do get laughters to myself if I do spot these sort of things... It makes life interesting, dont you think?

Okay, so much for now... Please check my next immediate post for pictures of Marina Barrage... Not many, but okay...

Something's happening...

Its been awhile since I last logged in to blogger... My apologies...

Ive been meaning to write but didnt quite have the chance to...

Hmm, I forgot to update most that I've been working at a seafood place for almost 4 months now, part-time. Life's been a little weird... I cant say Ive enjoyed it, but it is better off than being jobless and listless... :]

Lots of thoughts in my mind... Cant really tell if its good or bad... Mostly thinking and thinking... Self examining and stuffs and re-examining what others have done, etc...

Its been a long and tedious road for me... For others, it may be smooth sailing... Obviously, smooth sailing dosent apply to all, but I suppose not many would be as 'sway' as me to encounter all sorts of funny things at various times of my lives, and mostly while Im down...

I dont know really what Im really feeling , lots of mixed feelings, lost, happy, estrangement, in control, out of control, things just keep on happening!! I dont know what to make out of it...

I wish for a more mundane life... Something more of the expected... Rather than every other day living in surprises... Im kinda tired of surprises... To be honest, surprises dont really thrill as much as before... These days, its like, oh, okay, thank you! In the past, I would be totally thrilled with good surprises, ie., Ill be all over my toes and feet, leaping here and there!

I cant remember since when I started boozing daily... I cant remember when troubles dont keep coming at me especially when I am down, broke and out... I cant remember when was the last time I really had great fun with the one I love... I cant remember when was the last time when good luck was with me, blessing me...

I get loads of admirers, to be honest... What? I am lucky? Perhaps think again... I dont really want to be with them. I just wanna be their friend. What is there in common? Nothing. Besides beer, theres nothing. I dont fancy a fairy tale, nor a love story. I just wanna chill and have friends... Which is so so so so so so hard to find...

Everyone gets to me, for a reason... Everyone approaches me for a reason... Everyone wants my number for a reason... I am getting tired of this all... Can they SEE the real me? Its funny...

Ive never been exposed to working in coffeeshop environment like now... Trust me, its not great but its not bad. It all depends on the boss you are working for... Dont expect always good manners from coffeeshoppers, they are not exactly tamed... Dont expect good conversations either coz language or age differences as well as culture differences... Its hard to tell or know exactly what they are driving at...

Anyways, in short, I think Im not suited for this place... But Im stuck...